You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try.

I have had the idea of starting a blog in the back of my mind for a really long time, and today it hit me-there's no time like the present, so here I am.

 

My dad is visiting me in Tallahassee from Texas for the day, and when I told him that for grad school I want to go to University of California for sexuality studies, he said Cali is the perfect place for my liberal self. He also told me that my liberal views are a phase, because I'm in college. We have never agreed on anything--not much since I was 5 and my mom told me it was too late to carve pumpkins, so I went and asked him and he said I could. We agreed fantastically then.

However, my parents are no longer together and I am way closer to my mom now.

 

later on,

 I dropped my dad off at the airport after we went shopping (he got me a gas grill, yay!) and to Gordos (most delicious cuban food in Tallahassee) introducing my dad to his first cuban sandwich. ("put a cuban in your mouth," their slogan advertises--psh, I will any day)  When I got back in my car after dropping him off, I was really sad. Moreso than I had expected to be. :( It was a feeling I certainly had not been anticipating. He only stayed for 24 hours, it was like a tease. I hadn't seen him in six months before this. Next time we'll go to Mission San Luis.

 

I do feel unsure about life--I've completely dropped some people out that don't deserve a place there. People who I don't care to surround myself with, and I loved them at one point, loved them like there was no tomorrow. Just knowing they have it in their power to hurt me and take advantage of me the way they did sickens me to the point of not caring. It's interesting how one's mindset works in their favor, for protection. 

On a more productive note, I was given some really good advice today from a boy: when you are dating or talking to someone, pick one aspect of them that you adore, and another that is a bad quality and hold those close to your heart, so that when you are with someone else you do the same thing until you have created 2 lists. Only go for someone who has the good qualities and don't consider those with the same bad qualities. Pretty soon, he said, you'll be super picky but you'll have the right person. He overheard this advice being given to his sister in the kitchen when he was 16, and 6 1/2 years later it still holds true.
Something to definitely sleep on, maybe I should make a list tomorrow!

Published Monday, January 19, 2009 12:33 PM by justynashley
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